http://opentohope.com/dealing-with-loss/death-of-a-child/painful-loss-obliterates-the-road-can-free-us-too/ Thu, 18 Mar 2010 17:16:52 -0800 hourly 1 http://opentohope.com/dealing-with-loss/death-of-a-child/painful-loss-obliterates-the-road-can-free-us-too/comment-page-1/#comment-1761 Maritta Sat, 30 Jan 2010 07:59:19 +0000 http://opentohope.com/?p=7692#comment-1761 I definately now appreciate things that go as planned. Unfortunately I cannot fully enjoy them. Joy is not a word that belongs to me anymore. I don't want to wallow in my grief, far from it, but unfortunately this is the point I am at now, in grief. Maybe we should have prepared ourselves better for tragedy or untimely death, but who really does that with their children? Children are supposed to be full of life, not even associated with the word death. What upsets me is that I prepared my daughter so well for life. And she was about to soar and all she got was 19 years. 19 short years. But I agree, we are now free not to fear. When you have experienced the worst, what is there to fear? I feel your pain. I definately now appreciate things that go as planned. Unfortunately I cannot fully enjoy them. Joy is not a word that belongs to me anymore. I don’t want to wallow in my grief, far from it, but unfortunately this is the point I am at now, in grief. Maybe we should have prepared ourselves better for tragedy or untimely death, but who really does that with their children? Children are supposed to be full of life, not even associated with the word death. What upsets me is that I prepared my daughter so well for life. And she was about to soar and all she got was 19 years. 19 short years.
But I agree, we are now free not to fear. When you have experienced the worst, what is there to fear? I feel your pain.

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