Grief is a very difficult passage to make. We hope when we are grief stricken that someday we will no longer grieve. The reality in grief is that we really don’t “get over” it; we learn instead to live with it.
I lost my son to an opiate addiction in 2007. As you can imagine, it was a very difficult time in my life. As a mother, I did everything I could to keep him alive and happy. However, the day came in my life where parenting had to change. When my son became an adult, I had to let go and the next phase of spiritual awakening occurred then. I had to focus on taking care of me, since I had no control over my adult children.
I pray often that I can love myself as much as I have loved my children. I work at it daily.
I live in Ohio and as the seasons change, so does my grief.
We are rapidly approaching a time change, and will be losing our daylight hours. For some, this results in what we call Seasonal Affective Disorder. This is a pretty common diagnosis in this area of the country. As we lose our sun and daylight hours, we must be cognizant of how to feel better.
It goes without saying that we benefit immediately on a beautiful summer or fall day with a walk, gardening, outdoor sports, etc. The Vitamin D is not only good for our bodies but it is good for our souls as well. This is why it is so important to plan wisely to have something to look forward to. This will help to combat the blues or keep us from a grief spasm, as I call them.
I am sure to make my plans. For example, this time of year, I am in my cookbooks or online looking for recipes for different soups. There isn’t anything better for me but to wake up to in the morning but the smell of soup from the crockpot or to arrive home after a stressful day and walk in to the smell of delicious chicken soup or lentil soup. I tell my clients, it’s like having a wife at home!
I am also aware of the TV programs that begin in the fall that I look forward to watching. I’m a musician (my day job is a mental health counselor). I look forward to The Voice. It gives me something to anticipate when I walk in the door on Monday and Tuesday evenings. Find your programs and start thinking about them. The beauty of that is that we experience what we focus on. If we are focusing on something painful, we will feel the pain. So why wouldn’t the opposite be true?
It is a better choice to focus on something pleasurable to feel relief from the blues. Perhaps, you’ll experience some joy and happiness if your positive thoughts/experiences are strong enough.
The most important thing to remember is that we experience what we focus on. Fnd something meaningful and you will be pleasantly surprised at how much better you can feel. The people, places and things that feel good will be sure to lift your mood.
Marilyn Burns
http:/lostnomore.us
I as well lost my son of 29 years to an opiate addiction . I have a very hard time in dealing with his death ,due in part to feelings of guilt , because I as well have struggled with an opiate addiction for years. It will be 4 yrs. on Oct. 24 since my son passed away , but it seems like yesterday . I have an older son and he has had a very hard time dealing with the loss of his brother . They were very close . The sad thing is we share this , I also lost my brother he was killed in an accident at work . He was only 24 and I was 22 at the time . I know how badly this has hurt him to lose his brother.
If I wasn’t so lost in my own grief over the lose of my child, I could be a strong source of support for him .I wish that I could be like my Mom she seems to find all her help from her belief in God , I have not found that to be the case for me. I miss him so much at times I am beside myself with grief . I want to be with him and I know that is not possible ,, but oh how badly I wish