my boyfriend and i lived together for a year but we went on a break a week before he passed and he moved home. he and i were unseparable. from the day i met him we talked or saw eachother everyday. the last week he n i werent together everyday last time we talked was 4 in the morning, i was mad he hadnt seen me, he kept saying he was so tired and hed come over in the morning.I made him promise because i missed him, he worked the grave yard shift at a grocery store. 8 the next morning i got a phone call that he fell asleep at the wheel and died on impact. Its been 7 months and yesterday I celebrated his 23rd birthday. im mad he left me im mad that idk what to do with out him. Im tired, I feel very broken by his death, he was my man, my bestfriend and my baby.
Its been alost eight months since my spouse for over nine years passed away. She died in her sleep, a heart attack. She had been sick for a few years. She was 32 years old. She was my life partner and I looked forward to growing old with her.
When our loved ones pass away so suddently our lives turn into total chaos. We dont only loose our spouses, we loose the other half of us, and that space that our loved ones filled is nothing but emptiness, a black hole. Then are the emotions left in our heart, sadness, anger, grief and guilt that we have to deal with every day.
My way of dealing with my loss is to turn the emotions expecially the anger into energy. I work out alot and that has helped me alot also the routine that working out brings into my life.
I talk to my pastor once a month and wisit my friends alot to keep the connections with our mutual friends.
It is very easy to become isolated and alone, and that is the worst thing.
Its very important to talk about your feelings to people you trust. Not only do you help yourself but you can help others to that have experienced loss.
I am deeply sorry for your loss. I hope those few lines can help you. It helps me to write them.